I love my baby... I love my baby.. And I miss him so much... I really do yes I really do.. I did the meanest thing I could have ever done in my whole entire life.... I pretended to break up with him so that he'd learn his less . I've been trying change him.. To be like me.. So that.. People won't hate him so much.. I don't want people to hate him... I want people to say wow..Dan.. He's such a cool guy. Why does he love to proclaim that he's a bastard.. Why does he like to say mean stuff abt killing people.. Why does he like to talk abt my past that makes me feel so cheap? Why?? Why doe she want to be heard all the time.. Why doe he want to be the center of attraction all the time.. Why must he be so loud?! I think his ear drums are damaged... What's the point of listening to something louder then usual when u can hear it at the normal Volume and still hear everything.. Why must u stare at people who stare at you.. Why is it so hard to be patient.. Why is it so hard to love people who hurt you ?? Is it all that difficult to know that people hurt you just because they don't know or understand you...?

Does a parents' up bringing really matter at the end of the day when a young adult or who ever can tell the difference between right and wrong...? And if u have God with you... To teach you and guide you... If u have faith in him... What do we have to worry about ? Yes I get angry at things that happen in the world.. But I'm never angry for long... If something bad happens.. I belief God has his plans... And he knows that I becomes sad when my baby gets stuck on ship... God's been really kind to let me see him so many times this week... I'm truly thankful... I love my baby... Oh yes I do.. And I really miss him.. I made him cry.. I always seem to make him cry... Am I actually helping him like I think I am... Or am I hurting him... And pushing him back into that dark place I where found him... ? I love my baby.. I really do.. And I never want him to go away... He keeps me safe and he takes good care of me..And he loves me for who I really am and all I ever do is make him cry.... I wish people could see past all that he pretends to be and see him for how he really is... He's really nice once u really get to know him... He's a nice friend... I wish people would stop saying bad stuff about us and say good stuff... I hear abt how Daniel is how he talks so much.. How he's so short.. How he's so loud.. And how he's a nag... Why do people think twice before picking up his phone call...? I never hear how Daniel is so nice.. And how he helped me when I was hungry.. Or how I had no money to go home and Daniel gave me money to take cab home... And how I did not even have to return the money... How Daniel is always willing to help.... And how he's always there for the people he care for... He may not be perfect.. So are u people out there.... Despite of your imperfections.. God still loves you... And despite of your short comings there are some friends who are willing to stand by you if your family will not.... I'm not asking for your sympathy... I'm not asking you to send us a thank you hamper..All I'm saying is that.. It does not take a lot to say thank you or a soft whisper of thanks in our ear to reassure us that we're appreciated... Don't you guys like it too when we say nice things abt ya'll... ? He's only human... It does not pay to be nice... Perhaps that's why some people are mean... Still a kind word goes a long way for the people who are close to us.

I love you baby and I'm never gonna leave you. I miss you when you go away.. But some times people don't understand what we see in each other... In same way we may never know what couples like man and leen see in each other... I guess... With Love or at least some thoughtfulness everyone would be happier.