Endless Pain

Can someone please help fix this or can someone just end it for good please ? I've Had Enough. I Can't Handle this on my own no more. I've had enough. I'm gone...

Come, gentle night, come, loving, black-brow'd night,
Give me my Romeo; and, when he shall die,
Take him and cut him out in little stars,
And he will make the face of heaven so fine
That all the world will be in love with night
And pay no worship to the garish sun.
O, I have bought the mansion of a love,
But not possess'd it.

Day Six ...

It's the end of day six... Today I went for a job interview and attempted to escape and go out... but when I called home.. mom did not sound right. I decided to cancel on my friends and go home. I was right. I shouldn't have come home.

I thought.. hey.. at least my family is still around... and what do I see when I come home? I see everyone sittng in their own corners.. It just pisses you off that you even bothered. Sounds weird of me to say this right?? Well.. when this happens too often.. you eventually get pissed off.

Sometimes I wish I was all alone. Have a normal job.. come home after work to my own quiet apartment in a city where no one knows me. I've not felt this way in a long time. I thought I was over this feeling... Sigh... Where is he?

Day Five ...

I was fine these four days but last night.. it really got to me. I'm all alone. Last night I finally caved in. I cried.. and cried and cried while I listened to the fimilar voice in a msg he left me before he left till I fell asleep.

Day Four ...

I went to Jb today. Thought that if I kept myself occupied.. I won't feel so sad. We met at abt 11.30am at the causeway and got through the causeway about 2 hours later.

jam packed. Hated it. Did not know why I said I'd go. My sore throat did not help either. My stuffed nose was rather helpful. JB is smellier than my terrapin pond and hamster cage put together. God knows what these people eat.

Got through the Jam.. Went to have lunch, then we headed to the nearest shopping center. Can't remember it's name.
No.. That's not the shopping center.. But we were walking in the direction of that building. We walked around.. Everyone had something to look at.. But I just moved around from time to time just looking at things that weren't of any value to me. I felt like a spoilt brat singaporean kid. Sigh~* It did not help when I remembered how Dan pampers me. I bought my kitty a new eating dish and water bowl.

She seems to like it... either that or she was really... REALLY hungry. When we got outta the shopping center.. It was pouring heavily... Lightening and thunder and all.

Too heavy to do anything. Back inside the shopping center. Sigh... When we finally let the hopping center.. There was no time to do anything. Soon we went to eat dinner then headed home. Got home abt 1.30 tin the morning. My Day.. Sucked.. BIG time.

Day Three...

I'm Dying.. I'm fallin sick... I have no energy.. not even to type. I hate falling sick. I don't wanna fall sick... Sigh.. when is he coming home... In a way i'm happy he's not here when I'm sick. I don't want him to fall sick too.

I met Ali and Nan today.. went to paragon.. disturb Hanif at work.. Then went to Apple Center at Wheelock.. Nan's Getting an iBook!!!! *faintZ~* Ali had to go to work.. So Nan and I took a walk from Far east plaza till Dhoby Gaut. stoppingat almost every Old Chang Kee... He's my old Chang Kee Kahki.. ;P

Got to go.. I'm Sleepy.

Day Two... (Part 2)

Tonight.. no one is at home. I have a quiet smoke and look up at the moon... Somewhere out there.. I hope u're looking at the moon too.. it has a weird comforting feeling... I've not heard his voice in so long... well actually only 2 days.. I miss him.. I miss the company.. I miss his noise.. God how I hate feeling so alone and so.. so.. alone!! Argh!! ahh well.. what can I do.. I guess I'll just have to wait.. *SigH*

I'm kinda tired... Tomorrow I have to go Dog walking... I thought I could take fridays off.. oh well.. Ellen needs help anyway... besides.. I have nothing to do.. I wonder if anyone aside from Daniel thinks of me... I wonder if the think that they should do something to keep me company since dan would be outta town and I'd be all alone.. Sigh.. again.. if I don't make plans.. no one would I guess.. either that.. or they just leave me out.

Day Two...

I'm barely alive. I'm dying of boredom. If not for Miss Selina and Jane.. I'd have pretty much nothing to do. Yesterday when I was in the pound Miss Selina noticed I was taking pictures. She told me to send her some nice ones. So instead of flooding her inbox.. I created a site that would display all the pictures that I took. Today.. Jane noticed I was taking pictures and she asked me if I could help her send some pictures to Miss Selina. Hence the the need for the site was reinforced. If you wanna check out the pictures.. Click on 'in & around the pound'. It's flashing 'NEW!' where all the other links are.

Anyway...This is the Story of our Little Amy who got adopted into the wrong home.



This is Amy. A Sweet Cream colored Lab. She's about 2? Like all Labs.. They're family dogs that love to be around... They love playing and you have to know how to cope with their generally over friendly behavior. It was not long till she was adopted. Here, everyone wants a pure breed. About a month or so went past and today I see a familiar face... Amy??? You're back????

It seems Amy was abandoned by her adopted parents. When she left the pound.. She was nice and fit.. Now she's been reduced to a bag of bones! This is Rocky.. See how fit he is??

Now compare him with Amy.

The story is that Amy was too hyper so her bitch ass half wit humans let her go. The AVA found her and told them to come get her... But they did not. They said they did not want her anymore. Amy's humans have since been black listed and will not be allowed to adopt ever again.

People like these irresponsible owners... Will and I mean WILL burn in hell for what they did to God's creature. ANYONE... Who does it... Will suffer a painful, grose death... And that's when you go to hell. There you'll cry and weep and curse and pray but no one will answer you because of what you did.

So if you do see anyone Hurt an animal.. Remember... Abuse is a crime... But remember.. Witnessing it and letting it happen.. Is an EVEN bigger crime. Have a nice day. ;D

Day One...

This morning my baby left. He won't be back till 2nd of march or something. I din't even get to say goodbye.. sigh.. Went dog walking.. was home.. tried to sleep.. waited for him to call but he din't. Tried calling him but there was no reception. Tried to keep myself occupied.. went swimming at Jazmyn's place and got home not too long ago. It was fun! Still... nothing can replace his company. I guess I'll just have to wait like I always do when he goes away...

*grumbles*

Awwww... man.. does that mean I have to as well???? >.<: DammiT~~~**

Tomorrow's Monday!!!

I'm probably the only person who looks forward to mondays. Lol~*

Tomorrow I'll be dog walkin again.. Doing what I do best... I hope I get my earn as you learn thing with K-9 Paradise... Their coach is ranked No.2 in the world! Not country.. not region.. but WORLD It'll be a dream come true!!! Weee~~~*** I don't really know what's going on with John but I hope he comes through too. The notes would be great in case I have a theory test.

Anyway.. here are some pictures from Chingay 2005 and What I did on saturday.
>>>>>Chingay 2005 & Jamming<<<<<

New movies to look out for...

Spanglish

Hitch

Deuce Bigalow : European Gigolo

My very first Valentines Date.....

Last night was perfect. Everything was simple. There were no flowers.. There was no Champagne.. There were no chocolates. Still.. we did not need them. We had dinner and a couple of drinks and said nothing much. We did not have to.. we did not need to. It was the best conversation ever! After all.. Its not about chocolates.. the Champagne or the flowers. We're just happy we found each other so young... well sorta young.. at our age.. our parents were getting married... NOT that I'm saying we should get married.. hmmmm.. Its nice... everything is good... What could possibly go wrong? ;D

Tuck Everlasting

Jessie is 104 years old. He drank from a spring with his mom and dad and brother and horse. Today.. All of them live till they're a few centuries old... Everyone including the horse... Well accept the cat. She didn't drink from it.. So she died of old age. Jessie fell 30 feet one day and not a single bone was broken. Not even a scratch. Jessie met Winnie one day. They fell In love. Winnie met Jessie while she was lost in the woods. Jessie brought her home and showed her what it was like if she had all the time in the world to do what ever she wants. For the first time.. Winnie, an only child, stepped beyond the fence of her home and was free to have fun.. To run and play in the sun.. To ask questions... abt things she did not understand. And then one day.. After a whole day of swimming in lakes and running through fields and rubbing shoulders with wildlife.. Jessie had to leave the town for a while.. He was not sure when he would be coming back so she turned to Winnie and asked her to drink from the stream too... So that she could wait for him. And they could live forever together.

What would you if you were Winnie? What would you do if you had the chance of living forever? What if you could spend the rest of your days with your loved ones with out ever turning grey... Would you have drank from the spring???

You know what Winnie did... She did not drink from the spring. She realized that She should not be afraid of death but she should be afraid of not living life. Winnie Died at the ripe old age of 100. She lived her life and happy that she did. For the few days she spent in the woods with Jessie taught her one of the most important lessons in life.

St. Valentine's Day

It is a day for lovers to exchange tokens of love-candy, flowers, engagement rings and champagne. But its origin dates back to the third century Rome.

According to the most popular legend, the day is a tribute to St. Valentine, a Catholic bishop, who was performing marriages for young lovers in secret. Roman Emperor Claudius II outlawed marriages for young men because single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families.

Valentine was sentenced to death.

However, before he died Valentine sent the first 'valentine'. While in prison,Valentine fell in love with the jailor's daughter and wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine.'

Engagement Rings

Traditionally, the engagement, or betrothal ring, was a partial payment for the bride as well as a pledge of the groom's intentions. The expense of the ring was symbolic of the groom's wealth and his trust in the bride handling his money.

Ancient Greeks and Romans believed the diamond reflected the flames of love because they believed diamonds were splinters from the tip of Eros', the god of love, arrows.

The 'fire' of the diamond symbolizes innocence and purity, and the circular band symbolizes eternal love and perfection.

Every year, 2.2 million marriages take place in the United States. That means 6,000 a day.

Flowers

The rose was sacred to Venus, the Greek goddess of love. It symbolizes peace and war, love and forgiveness and passion.

For Valentine's Day, about 110 million roses will be sold and delivered within a three-day time period during the holiday.

Champagne

La Champagne, France is a region of timeless natural beauty and world famous vineyards. For centuries, champagne was the only wine considered worthy of an offering to God and kings.

Today, champagne is considered the most romantic wine, and the most often toasted with loved ones.

Popping the cork on Valentine's Day has become its own tradition.

Tradition

When the Puritan's settled in the Virginia, fruits had to be shipped from overseas, therefore, they were very expensive and exotic gifts to offer one in exchange for a courtship.

Now chocolate has taken its place in heart boxes and red wrappers.

In 2003, each American gobbled more than 24 pounds of candy, a large potion believed to be consumed during Valentine's Day.

Long Long week...

I've been with out Dan so many times this week.. he's got to do duty today as well.. sigh... its so weird when he's not around.. there's nothing to do... no one to fight with.. and after that.. no one to play with... it's like buddy's missing.. my bestfriend's not there to here me complain... he always makes me smile.. I always have fun when its just the two of us. Its wonderful that I've found my bestest friend ever.. Phone call.. brb.

Lazy days...

I'm Lazy to blog.. nothings happening and because it's the public holidays.. my brain sorta switched itself off. Here's what happened In the last week or so.

Munjen New Year's Eve...

Just got home from my kick ass cool cousin's place. Had a swim.. "BBQ-ed".. took Tabby around.. She was quite social. I think i just might get her a companion to play with.. there's a few at the pound. I'll upload their pictures soon.

Sat with people I completely don't know.. but their stories were funny! The private joke and all I could not catch but the general ones were fun. Best of all.. I could smoke whenever i wanted to! ;D How cool is that?!

Tomorrow.. gonna watch that Keanu movie.. Con-something-tine... I have no idea how to spell it... anyway.. I have a new Link to add.. WEEE!! My List is getting longer!! Happy happy joy joy!!!

Well the worst is over at home.. hope things will look up from now... Tabby claire's home.. ate, drank and went to.. er.. see the dog abt a bone. I'm falling asleep.. soo.. yeah.. oh oh!! i did this and i think it's way cool!! weEEEEE You try it too!!

I Believe In a Thing Called Love by The Darkness

"I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour, every day You got me in a spin but everythin' is A.OK!" You played it cheesy and campy in 2004, but you know how to rock out.

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OH!! and this too.. hehehehe...

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Anyways I'm off to sleepy land.. good night!!!!

Nice Slow Sunday...

Today was kinda cool although dan and i were dead broke.. we caught racing stripes.. It's really sweet.. baby zeebras look so goofy! 5 out of 5 stars for the animals actin in it.. not much of a kids movie.. has a wonderful balance of emotion and comedy. David Spade was a fly.. goodness.. yeah and Nina in just shoot me was the bad guy.. she was .. if u ask me.. was playing herself.. only meaner... she was funny and got her just reward in the end. Dustin hoffman and whoopi was kick ass.. mandy more.. a nice sweet show jumping mare; sandy. Her voice really suited the role.

I got an sms from my dad at 8.50pm this evening...

Dad: time 2 come home
me : okay.. by 11pm okay ?(that's my usual time)
Dad: no 10.15
me : okok.. 10.45??
Dad: no 10.00
me : ="(
Dad: see you soon
me : ="""(
Dad: He He He!

Parents these days.. should not teach them how to sms.. anyway.. with V day around the corner.. the couples these days are really showing how 'affectionate' they are. (Dan, Hanif, Man, Said and I saw a girl screaming madly and throwing tantrums at her.. well we're guessing her boyfriend at the orchard mrt east bound platform.)

Girl: I did not say anything!!! (Screaming at the top of her lungs)
Boy : *sits with his head over his ears*
Girl: Who started making fun first!!!?!? *points at the boy* I did everything for you!!! *throws a fit* I did not say anything!!!! *starts crying*
Boy : *Sits with his hands over his ears*

Our train then arrived.. so we get on and we're talking abt it.. Said says.. "maybe she's complaining abt the size of his dick..." Then everything suddenly fell into place....

Girl: I did not say anything!!! (although your dick was so small!!)
Boy : *sits with his head over his ears*
Girl: Who started making fun first!!!?!? *points at the boy* I did everything for you!!! *throws a fit* I did not say anything!!!! *starts crying* (you should get the picture from here onwards...)
Boy : *Sits with his hands over his ears*

Goodness... anyway.. a joke to lighten up the mood...


BRITISH : Please divert your course 15 degrees to the South, to avoid collision.

U.S.NAVY : Recommend you divert YOUR course 15 degrees to the North, to avoid a collision.

BRITISH : Negative. You will have to divert your course 15 degrees to the South to avoid a collision.

U.S.NAVY : This is the Captain of US Navy ship. I say again, divert YOUR course.

BRITISH : Negative. I say again. You will have to divert your course.

U.S.NAVY : THIS IS THE AIRCRAFT CARRIER USS LINCOLN. THE SECOND LARGEST SHIP IN THE UNITED STATES' ATLANTIC FLEET. WE ARE ACCOMPANIED BY THREE DESTROYERS, THREE CRUISERS AND NUMEROUS SUPPORT VESSELS. I DEMAND THAT YOU CHANGE YOUR COURSE 15 DEGREES NORTH. THAT'S 15 DEGREES NORTH, OR
COUNTER MEASURES WILL BE UNDERTAKEN TO ENSURE THE SAFETY OF THIS SHIP.

BRITISH : We are a lighthouse. F*** off


Anyways.. hope you had just as an eventful day as I did.