Just another day...

Today I...

- Had my first day at work at the "Clinic for Pets"
- Lost my phone today (SigH~*)
- Missed Daniel's call before he left for the south china sea.
- Ate at Seoul Garden with Nan and Adila
- Went scouting for new phone with Man in TPY
- Got Daniel a little something to cheer him up
- Saved thirty bucks

I'm pretty happy despite the fact that I lost my phone and all my dog care memories. The only way I could see my Anabelle. Ah well.. I've developed a soft spot for small dogs.

2 years and 5 months today...

I start m new Job tomorrow... Kennel keeper with some grooming involved. I'll be working at the "Clinic for Pets" at Paya Lebar. Very nice people.. I'll be lerning about veterinary tech stuff too.. which means.. EXPOSURE! =D I'm glad I'll be working.. can pay my next bill..will havemoney to go out..willbeable tostart saving.

My brother is in the hospital agin.. sigh.. why can't he take care of himself... and my mom is so stressed out.. every tiny problem is my fault. I wish I was invisible..

Today.. 23rd Aug.. 2 years and 5 months.. glad i got to spend it with Daniel. He's going OBO next year.. 4 months.. won't see him for our 3rd year anniversary. Guess it'll be just another ordinary day.

Irritated...

Okay.. so last night was not exactly that fun... but it was alright.. I played Halo 2. so that counts for something. Daniel does not like me playing mahjong... sigh.. he's mean. He's been.. kinda "pms-y" on me... very touchy.. I hate it when he quits a game he's playing when he's not doing too well... It's SO irritating and attention seeking that I really have half a mind of bashing his head through the wall. He CANNOT be outdone in any game... If he is.. he'll quit and be like that Arsenal footbal coach and whine about how sucky his controls were or how he's lost on the map.. or how he keeps getting stuck. He refuses to admit he was looking at my screen.. It's hard to belive that he does not do it cause he does it all the time in CS.. and when it comes to x-box.. 2 people share one screen so it's even easier... Talking about it makes me so Irritated. Guess yesterday did not turn out the way I wanted it to. Ah well... I got a call form a friend yesterday... She said she missed me.. I was so touched! Nobody has actually called me to say they miss me at work... It feels like home there.. It's peaceful.. the people are nice... Everything is convenient...sigh.. I miss it so much there. Anyway.. today i have a meeting with the groomers in Ang Mo Kio.. so yeah... I hope they have grooming tables and harnesses. If they don't I'll hang my self. Okay maybe I won't.. but It'll be good if they do. Maybe I should free Lance for a while... Hmm.. Think that would work ???? it just might... I don't know... Adila can drive.. so.. Who knows...

So tired...

Today I have nothing to do except to go to church and to meet Daniel. Yes.I am done with grooming school and I am done job hunting for the moment. My parents say I can take a rest.. so that's just what I'll do. Thinking of talking a trip to Bali.. For like 3 days.. lern to surf... But I don't know if Daniel can make it. Anyway.. Yesterday.. Went for a try out thing at puppy paradise.. God! Help the poor creatures that go there. That place.. Is.. Horrible!!!!!!! Goodness!!! *SPITS* They don't even dry the dog. She insists we don't use safty harnesses and she thinks it strangles the dogs.. YEAH FOR DUMB ASSES WHO WHAVE NO QUALIFICATION! She's so stupid! I don't know how she can be featured in magazines and shit. She's SO Stupid!! The whole time she was grooming, She kept smsing and she towards the end of the day, she would answer phonecalls and speaking in chinese, she would say that she would not know when she would be done and that she can't meet up with them yet.. athat she's still at work.. I got in at 11pm and I left after 7.30pm. I went out at abt 6 to have a smoke when the last dog was in the showe and made some phone calls. When I came back in I was sweeping the room and tidying up.. I asked her if there was anything else she wanted me to do.. she said.. oh just the last cocker. I was like okay.. so when I went to take out the trash as I came back I saw saw the cocker being carried to the grooming room. I started work on the cocker.. when i was done about 40 min later.. I came out to ask her if there was anything else she wanted to add or snip away; I found the rest of the shop dim. The lights and the front shutters were pulled down.. I asked some guy where Joleen is.. he said so calmly oh she left already.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But she's not finished the dog yet! She did not tell me she left.. so I asked him.. so where is this cocker's owner ?? It's so late already.. Is she Here yet.. He happily replies.. Oh yeah!! She's just outside.. I was just talking to her. I was pissed... So I asked him.. why did you not tell me she's here.. You know what the Jackass replies???? "Oh. You did not ask.." he adds a funny smile to it pretending that it's really funny... I told him look.. If you want me to work for you we have to work as a team. If the owner is here you notify the groomer!!!! DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW I HAVE NEVER Been so pissed in my whole entire life. Goodness!!!!! What rubbish... UUUUUURRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Note to everyone who sends their dogs to Puppy Patrol @ Bkt Timah for grooming.. BEWARE! Your pets are not taken care of!

I know that was not professional at all.. but really.. I hate the way they are treated. who picks a dog up from the floor to the table but just grabbing one paw!? They are so frieghtened... they pee on the table! She thinks the harnes is more dangerous then the dog just jumping off the table. I had to share the table with her.. she was doing a yorkie while I was doing the cocker. MY GOD!!!!!!

Ok enough talk of this... I am going out with Daniel today.. for dinner.. It's been a long time since we've had quality time.. So yeah.. Hope today will be nice.

Dan's Home...

Went driving with some friends today.. went to pick Daniel up from Changi... later went to bedok to eat.. later again went to changi to check out the trannies.. it was.. well.. interesting considering that I've never seen this before.. later we sat on the beach and watched planes take off and land. Had awsome fun.. but came home at 2.. parents wer angry.. sigh.. oh well.. I hardly ever get out so I don't care.

He's comming home!! =D

He's coming home!!! Got a call from daniel this morning! WeeE!!! he came back earlier than I thought he would! so now they dropping anchor at 6! Mark says he does not mind going to pick Daniel up.. so.. YAY!!! =D hehehe... so excited.. can't wait to see him! Hehe.. I'll be leaving soon.. going to meet mark at novena. HEHEHEHEHEHE~* LAters!!

P.S : HAppy Birthday Dez and Chubbs!!!! Have a blast tonight!! ;D Sorry I can't come to night.. I'm working tomorrow.. *sulk*

10th Day

I went to work today... with a kind of sadness.. I knew it would my second last day.. Dog Care is like a second home to me. I feel as if I just started my school.. I know I can pull it off.. but.. I'm nervous. I spoke to Maggie about that gardens guy and his offer. I know I can pull it off.. but..I don't really feel like committing to him yet because I do not really like the way he presents himself... he's clumzy.. he's weird.. trips over wires.. dropps stuff.. probably slams his fingers in doors as well. His Idea of a price list is writing it on coulourd A4 paper and using tape to hold it onyo the glass. The name of the place is Pets Globe.. Honestly.. I know I can make this place happen.. It's just that.. I don't want it to seem like I'm taking over everything.. and another thing is that.. he keeps looking at me weird.. and when i turn to look at him.. he looks away as if he's not been looking.. I don't know what he's looking at.. but.. It's alittle scary. I missed my appointment at the Ang Mo Kio Groomers. I'm hopeless.. Another reason I don't want to turn him away is because he wants the help.. I cannot just drop him like that and leave him to survive on his own.. it's a mean thing to do.. I don' tknow.. for some reason i feel guilty. S$1200 + 14% CPF = monthly pay.. I work 6 days a week.. from 10am to 9pm. The working hours are crazy! from 10am to 7pm can understand... not 10am to 9PM!!

I don't know la... I'm so mentally stressed.. how do I know if i'm making the right choices... I have NO experience what so ever... I have my life to worry about.. my mom told me that some people are being asked to retire... My brother is getting married all of a sudden... I'll be gettin gmarried to dan in about 2 years... My life is moving faster each day.. I'm falling behind.. I can'tkeep up.. I'm.. so .. tired.

9th Day

Today, I groomed a schnauzer. Mr. Kim Soon came in today and sead the words I've been dreadding to hear.. "Joanne.. you'll be graduating this saturday.. you'll get your certificate then."
*faints*
He gave me 3 numbers. prospective employers... one at marine parade.. one in ang mo kio.. one at gardens. I've not called marine parade. Ang mo kio asked me to come in tomorrow. But I managed to meet the guy at gardens. Well... Remember my dream of having mw own grooming salon? It's coming true! This guy wants to have a pet shop come grooming shop.. but he does not know how. He told me to go home and come up with the things I would need.. be it a washing machine.. hight speed dryer.. grooming tables.. sigh.. it's crazy!!!! I told I have to think it over with my parents and Dan and then tell him if I want to or not. He gave me until friday. I'm trying to doge him untill saturday. I'm going to speak to Mr. Kim Soom about this tomorrow. Sigh... so many things on my mind... I can't sleep... sigh... 2 more days.

8th Day

Today.. I played mahjong... with my best friend.. her big brother and his girlfriend. Hehehehehe~~* DAMN fun!!! ;P Dan Called me today.. HAPPY!! But I was playing Mahjong.. so wrong timing.. But everytime he call I win! hehehe!! Friday he'll be coming back... 1900hrs.. by the time he secure.. I'm guessing it'll be 2200hrs.. I'll wait.. Like I always do.. Have much to talk about. Well.. I have school tomorrow.. I'm off to bed.. Still contemplating about friday. I think I'll call Chris tomorrow. *YawnS~* Night.

7th Day

Dan is supposed to be in Singapore waters today..Can't wait. Miss him so much..

Today.. Went for my interview.. I like the people a lot.. But Marc does not smile.. So.. I'm pretty scared. Friday I have a trial thingy.. Have to be near St. Pats by 9.45am. It's really far... I might not take it. Everything is in the east.. Wish I was staying in that vicinity.

Well.. I'm rethinking the terrace house thing. I guess a hdb will do. =/ It's really saddening.. But it's more realistic not that I'm saying that we can't... We can try to pull it of.. Cause if it's free hold... My kids won't have to buy a house.. We can just pass it down from generation to generation... That kind of thing.

So yeah.. After the interview went to meet mum and nic (my brother) at lavender.. We headed to ROM.. Then to the Filipino Embassy.. Goodness. The hunt for it was so cool! It was at nassim road.. But we did not know where.. So we were just driving around.. I went pass the German ambassador's house.. The Russian ambassador's house and therussian embassy, Singapore's Chief Justice's home.. lets see.. what else did I see.. OOHH!!! and this Palace that belongs to some Arab person who probably deals withOil and pretious stones.. GOODNESS!! If u can.. Go look for it.. It's at the top of nassim hill... It's.. Fascinating to see how RICH the REALLY REALLY Rich are. After that hat to the Ministry of foreign affairs... I stayed in the care cause I did not have my IC.

Got home had lunch.. thn went to Dhoby Gaut to play Halo 2!!! WeeE~* While playing oli joined me.. She headed to Gotham i took her bag and headed home.. will be going her place tomorrow for Mahjong!! weeeee~* hehe ah well... I'm hungry.. going to get a snack b4I sleep.. night.

6th Day

Had only one dog today.. a spoilt bratt, mummy's pampered pooch, walking table top.. A Welsh Corgi. After that.. went to Lilian's shop..It was SO PRETTY!!!!!!!!! Everything was in shades of pink!! =D I wish for nothing but good fortune for Lilian. =D

Headed to town after that... It's ali's 21st Birthday tomorrow.. wanted to play mahjong at olivia's place today.. but short 2 people.. sigh.. also I can't stay over night anywhere.. I get home sick.. Sigh.. how to get married.. Speaking of which... It's time to start saving money. Have an interview tomorrow.. at 520 East Coast Road, #01-06, Ocean Park. I have not the slightest idea on how Ii can get there. I spoke to him on the phone.. I just hope he does not think I'm ang moh.. since I was speaking proper english.. he started slang-ing.. ;P Oh well.. it's contageous.

I just realised something...every time there's a public holiday.. I never see Daniel. =( He worked on Easter.. Good friday.. New year.. Last year we were stuck in a cab.. massive traffic jam while on the way to the esplanade to watch the fire works.. we missed it. I've not gotten to watch fireworks with him.. I've watched it with so many other people but not Daniel.. It's not fair... Sigh.. was calculating how much we needed to save to get a house.. I think saving $800 bucks a month each is good enough. My aunt told me that one has to save one third of their pay.. which would be $800 for Daniel.. and if I get abt the same pay as he does.. $800 too... $1600 a month.. multiply that by 24 months would give you $38,400 ... that's enough cash in hand right? Ah well.. once we move in.. monthly we can slowly pay it off too.. cause even if we rent.. we'll be paying abt the same amount per month.. so yea..it comes to the same thing.. might as well just buy the damn thing and keep it as somthing you can keep forever.. like for our kids.. an asset? is that what it's called? Oh well...

I miss Daniel.. so much has happened.. So much I want to tell him.. everytime there's something really important.. I never get around to talking to him when I reall yneed to. I miss having him around.. sigh.. everything is too quiet... a few days left... trying to hang in there... sigh.

5th Day

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven,
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all of the joy in
my life, But most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony
daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
daddy, but I should try it."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma
a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,
from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great
big world. But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on
the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise,
and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room
just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking,
and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over....and gave me....

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?"
"Daddy,
don't cry."
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more, man, this is what love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

I know It's very early to think about this but.. I don't wanna change me name!! I don't wanna be given away!!! I wanna stay here!! Here's where I belong! I'm torn between the life I'm having and the life I want to have. I want both! BUT I CAN'T!! I'll Just have to choose... But I don't want to choose.. I like everything the way it is now... I don't want to leave anyone and I don't want anyone to leave me.. I don't want anything to change... I want everything to stay as it is.. I want NOTHING to change................

4th Day

Today I stayed home... More talk of my brother getting married.. *StresS* But today.. It was slightly different... We were talking about MY wedding.. *faints* .. It's nerve wrecking... He's not even proposed yet.. from 5 years grace to 4 years. Now I'm left with 2 years to establish myself as much as I can after which Dan and I are getting married. It's finally happening.. I feel sad I have to leave my parents but living with Daniel.. the idea of having to split when we go home is very tempting. My parents approve.. I wonder if his parents would. He IS after all the only one in the family who brings in the baccon. Are they ready for it? What if they can't get along with my parents? What if Dan can't convert? Suddenly all of this happening way tooo fast and is becoming an unplesent experience.

Watched a show on tv today. It was prom night. The atmostphere romantic.. the people; beautiful and the music perfect. Hero walks to heroin, extends his hand and says.. "May I have this dance..?" Heroin replies.. "I thought you'd never ask." He held her close and swayed to the music. She closed her eyes and rested her head on his shoulder. She was safe. I wish that would happen to me. Dan's Romantic yea.. but.. he's not that smooth.. you know.. sweep you off your feet kinda leave u breathless effect.. is missing. =( Still.. I love him the way he is.. unknowing..unsuspecting romantic.. Sigh.. When are you coming home..... .

3rd Day

All this talk of getting married in the house is making me very nervous. I some how know that I will be marrying Dan.. but what I'm afraid of is if my parents would let me and IF our parents can get along.. It's going to be massive... his side.. my side.. the only thing i'm nervous of is his parents meeting mine. I hope they just leave each other alone... sigh... Thinking about this is making me shake. At the moment.. the only consolation I have is that I will be marrying the man I love.

Other than that.. I had one general tidy and one full groom.. no.7 clip down.. After work.. went to get some stuff fo mum.. thn started walking in a straight line until i was interrupted my nature.. I went to the loo.. lost water... had to replace it.. Went to 7-11 next to kopitiam. BIG MISTAKE was approached by some black guy.. and he stole one of my cigs!!!! GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! Franklin... urgh.. *shudder*.. Ran for my life.. later had a kitten for company some where in bugis and ended up at the Esplanade.

I miss dan....

2nd Day

Came Home today.. Never felt so alone. Sigh... Work was alright.. Having a headache... Have to get Cigs tomorrow... Probably will sit near fullerton and read after work... sigh... I miss him... you know.. I never thought I'd be this attached to anyone.. Hmmm... I guess I am really very spoilt... Well he's the one who spoilt me... *bleah* I can get away with anything with him... Oooh I love him so much... I don't know what I'd do without him.

1st Day

Dan left this morning... Missing him alrready... We'd be together around this time of the day.. It's weird to be alone.... Went to Vanessa's place... wanted to swim but ness did not want to.. so we skipped... sigh... everytime i go there i bring the rain... rain... was really bad weather.. hope he's doing okay... sigh... good night love... missing you already.