I was waiting for today the whole week.. And when it finally came.. It disappeared... My joy short lived.. But still.. I lived it for a while. Not enough to keep me going.. But enough to keep me alive I guess. Life with out my baby stinks... I feel so lost... I have n one to hold... I feel so insecure... I'm so dependent on him.. I don't know what to do with out him... Hell he is my life and I his. Why.. Why did u have to go away... Deep purple concert coming up... Praying I can make it... With him of course... It'll be my very first concert... And sigh... IT'S JUST NO FAIR! Every where I turn there are couples in their own world.. Oblivious to the fact that they are being watched... I miss you baby.. Why do u have to do this... Sigh.. I want u to be the best u can be.. But for you to be the best I have to suffer.... But I have to be strong for him.. Even today.. I was tearing up inside... I finally get to see him after so long... And the y take him away from me...It's not fair! He's mine! Give him back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby... I'm wearing both of your rings... I'm waiting for you to come back again... Don't be sad that I'm feeling like this... I know that for us to succeed... We have to get through this. It's a slowly but surely path I guess... I'll be fine and please don't over work ya self and don't get sick on purpose just to see me... I love you and nothing will keep us apart for long... Not even God.