Today is the day.. That I'll finally watch my very first concert... Deep Purple... Why do I get this feeling Dan can't make it... ? As I type.. I think he's still in CNB... Sigh... I just know the stupid ship will call him back and I won't see him again for don't know how long.. We'll drift further and further away form each other until eventually we have a "silent" break up... And that's the end of this so called new chapter in my life. BUT I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN! What happened to all the joy.. The love.. The fun.. I'm so bored.. I only have my computer for company.. a bunch of pain in the ass kids who only care about them selves and a leaking air-conditioning unit. I still don't know why I fell for Dan... But I love him very much... Now..I feel like he's my buddy... Someone I hang out with....What happened to the feeling of loving him... ? I feel its just programmed in my mind that I love him... Maybe we've spent too long apart... I guess what my brother and Stephanie had was really lasting...Too bad it went to waste after 3 long years... What' going to happen to me...? Is the same thing going to happen to me as well ???