Sleepless.....

I cant keep doing this... I'm having a sever migrane. I feel like throwing up. I can't sleep till I know he's alright.. he's not called me yet. not even one sms. Missing him so badly I'm going crazy just trying to think of ways to reach him.. but I can't cause I keep coming to a dead end. I really, really feel like throwing up now... gonna end here, throw up, drug my self and try to sleep... every morning I wake up and the first thing I do is check my phone for messages from him... but in the last 48 hrs.. my phone has been silent... not one person bothers.. not one person cares... I want to be free agian... maybe I can do this on my own afterall....