You know... sometimes when u need help.. everyone seems so far away and busy with their own things... it makes me feel so.. lonely.. and sometimes when u have everythign going on and everything is fun suddenly everyone wants to hang out with you.. i am partially to blame cos i keep saying don't worry... we'll help you out.. but still in the end.. when i'm all alone.. and when i'm down in the dumps.. noone seems to care.. everyone sees me as this strong person... always willing to survive almost anything.. but hey.. i'm only human... i need someone to fall on too... some times when dan things my frinds are nothing but useless.. mindless.. nolifers... i can fall on them cos i know that they'll help... Lucretia and Olivia brought me clubbing last wednesday night.. paid for everything... and i mean EVERYTHING... i din have to worry.. u see with them i don't have to plan and worry abt oh.. how will this person react or how iwll this person like it if we do this...? i'm like tired of trying to make everyone happy when no one would make me happy when i need some cheering up. When i'm with my girls.. i feel taken care of.. even if i tell thm i can't afford it or if i can't make it.. they actually help me in every way possible so that i can stay with them and not miss the fun... Just so that they can have my company... I feel like i belong with them... i feel like i have a place with them.. and even when i go missing for a lon glong long time and no matter how much i've been negleting them.... they still keep that place for me.... i miss those days of staying up late.. clubbing then going to CBD and slacking ther till morning.. or going back to someone elses' place and having to not worry about food... it's... magic... i feel free... cause i knoe they'll take care of me... perhaps i've been over looking them.. perhaps i've been brian washed.. I say to everyone no body's perfect.. give them another chance... think it's about time i take my own advice........