Some kind of hope ...

Dan's called!! Hope at last. Maybe I can pull through this... now that he's somewhat here... but he's still so busy.. I still won't be seeing him often though. He's going off again.. for another 3 days.. not counting his days that he has duty. Life sucks. I hope I start work soon.. I need to get away.. I feel like running.. but I have no where to go... Even if I did have somewhere to go I wouldn't cause I have no guts to. Where can I go to find peace of mind??? I'd give anything to have things the way they were... I know that there's something I have to learn from all this.. but what ??? As of now.. I'm just too tired.. too mentally drained to think.