Lost...

I got a job... yeah.. decided that being another burden to Daniel is not exactly what a girlfriend should do. I'll be working there and I'll probably have some money to share with Daniel.

I'm afraid of getting a job. I feel weird. I feel as if I'm going to be bound to responsibility... I know I have to be responsible at one point in my life.. but I'm afraid of change.. I'm also afraid I'll screw up at work. I start at 10.40 in the morning.. I can't go dog wlaking!! *SOB* Tomorrow... I have to take pictures of a few dogs for the SPCA website and it has to be up by the friday...hmm... perhaps after work I can do it. I think i Really have to draw up a time table.

I'm also starting school next tuesday... I'm afraid that I won't be good at it.. If I screw this up too.. what then will I do ????? I wanna be the best.. everryone is telling me I'll be the best.. I will do really well.. They can see me running my own place... Sigh.. I just wanna be with Daniel.. and my family and I want everything to nice and happy.. I'm afraid.. very afried of the life that is to come. I will have 3 things to juggle... Dog walking... Work and school.... I think I will call my teacher and ask him when my school days are.. thn I'll draw up a time table.. I'm just afraid I won't beable to spend time with my loved ones.. Daniel and My mom and dad... I guess I have to grow up.. I guess my days of being happy and not caring abt much has got to end.. I have to work. I have to support my self...

After typing so much I feel like I've still not expressed my self... Something is wrong... I mean... I wanna be free but I wanna put my time to good use.. I wanna do what I want.. but if I do what I want.. I can't be putting my time to good use.. But If doing what I want is putting my time to good use... Thn.. I'd be wasting my time.. Is doing what I what wasting my time? Am I putting my time to good use?? Or am I just useless??????

Our Holy Father John Paul II
1978 - 2005

"Have no fear of moving into the unknown. Simply step out fearlessly knowing that I am with you, therefore no harm can befall you; all is very, very well. Do this in complete faith and confidence."

-Pope John Paul II

Sick again....

I'm sick. I want to go to the hospital.. but I can't. Wish my parents would bring me. Someone is getting on my nerves. Makes me just wanna disappear. Hanif and Zaa told me to get well soon. Perticularly Hanif.. I was suprised. Man too. The amount of bile.. scary. Lucky man was there.. he knew what to do.. I feel like eating a rendang burger. Hmmm... Maybe baby will get me one later. I love him so much.. He takes such good care of me.. I know I can always rely on him. I'd do anything for him and he would do the same for me. I miss Vanessa. I start school on the 19th. I wanna go bintan at the same time i don't wanna be aprat from Daniel. My joints ache.. i have to go lie down. Sigh~*



Your Hidden Power Is Light
Angel

You have a happy yes quite soul. You keep
somethings to yourself and like to be alone but
don't mind showing your bright side to your
friends. You find that hell is the worst of all
scince your an angl from heavan. You use your
powers for the forces of good to protect gods
creatures.

Gem Stone: Canary Diamond, Eye
Color:Golden,Hair Color:Blonde that
goes to your shoulders

Quote:In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lulaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me


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