Someone end my misery...

Okay... the previous post was weird. I don't really know why I wrote it or where it came from.

Anyway... Who wants to jump right in the middle of this brood??? I hope i'm not the only crazy one. Someone please end my misery and just kill me. I WANT to have a dog. I want the company so bad.. I'd beg steal or even kill just to have one. It's driving me crazy. EverydayI see owners come in with their pretious pooches.. expecially the big ones... And when it's time to go home.. They're just so happy to see their owners.. I want to feel that love... to be loved unconditionally.

My cat is killing me. She's so... I don't know.. I love her yes.. but.. she's so... non responsive... she only comes to us when she wants food..It's so annoying.. like we're only here to serve her. Picture this..

me : *throws small rubber ball her way*
cat : *...*
mom : why you throwing a ball at her???
me : Sorry.. I forgot.... she's not a dog.

There's nothing I can do with her..When I had Gracie.. I could bring her for a walk.. I could play ball with her.. she would sit with me.. she wants to be with me.. Where else can u get company like that ??? I'm not going to wait till I get my own home.. Think abt it.. secret boyfriend.. do u think i'd get married soon ??? Also when will i have a dog ?? When my parents are old and can't look after them selfs?? I'll never have time for a dog at that rate.. I want one now!!!! I Can't go on.. I have a leash.. i have a doggy bed.. I have a water bowl.. but i have no dog. Am I not good enough??? It's not fair!! people everyday kids.. they get dogs.. puppoes just because they're cute... and afew months down the road.. they get rid of it.. abandon it... why case they can't cope.. here i am.. willing to give mylife to it.. and I don't get one!? This is madness...

Someone please.. end my misery... I miss my Grace.. where is she?? Does she still think of me ?? does she miss me?? Does she hateme for what I did to her? I bet she does.. maybe I shouldn't have a dog after all... I'm not good enough.