My First Love

I tried to be perfect for you but I know I'm not perfect.
I want things to remain the same but I want things to change.
I know you're the one for me but I know you're not the one.
I wish things were better but I wish nothing happened.
I tend to think about you but I don't want to remember you.
I see it will work with u but i also see it won't.
I can cry a river but I can't seem to shed a tear.
I hurt you but I did not hurt you.
I tried you but I failed you.

I giving but I'm selfish.
I love but I'm hating.
I feeling but I'm numb.
I trust yet I don't believe.
I know but I don't know.
I want to but I don't.
I understand but I'm confused.
I live but I died a long time ago.